It's the question and the answer. Everyone wants to find it, understand and share it. That's the whole point of our existence in fact.
The quest is to first understand this concept. This intangible, complex yet simple understanding that we are made from love to love. We are meant to learn what love is. Learn what it is in order to accept it and then turn around and share it.
But somehow somewhere along the way in life- some of us simply get it wrong. Honestly I'm speaking mostly about myself and assume (believe and sadly know) I am not alone in the misconstrued view of the four letter "L" word. Unfortunately life at times make it difficult to discern what love is truly meant to be when we have received so much hurt and damage from those riding under a false banner of care. People who are suppose to love us- don't or can't. And it's hard to say why or really reason- but the end result is the same- hurt with wounds that can take long to heal and sometimes leave scars. Love in the realm of flesh and blood will fail for the simple fact the source from we humans alone is limited, conditional, and imperfect.
The desire and hope for this true love in a imperfect, fallen world seems so counter intuitive to the natural instinct of defensiveness and self preservation. What is it that causes the heart to yearn? The want to be pursued, admired, and accepted wholly is the inclination of every person in every relationship. Yet- we know the impossibility and limited faculties available within ourselves and others. So why is it there in the first place?
I feel that there is something else stitched within us that makes life more than the avoidance of tragedy and becoming broken-hearted. Almost no other term comes to mind but a "divine spark." Existing in every heart, at every stage in life is the longing of the heart to be fulfilled. From the seeking of approval and acceptance from those who raise us, the hope that we'll get chosen and deemed worthy on the school grounds, the primping in front of the mirror to garner the view we wish to be perceived, to the the needs of affirmation that we are indeed cherished and viewed as lovable- all are fractals of a whole not able to be found in the human heart alone. This divine spark- this yearning and longing for true love- can only be discovered in the originator of the spark. It is meant to point us back to the Divine- the Creator of the human heart.
I feel that there is something else stitched within us that makes life more than the avoidance of tragedy and becoming broken-hearted. Almost no other term comes to mind but a "divine spark." Existing in every heart, at every stage in life is the longing of the heart to be fulfilled. From the seeking of approval and acceptance from those who raise us, the hope that we'll get chosen and deemed worthy on the school grounds, the primping in front of the mirror to garner the view we wish to be perceived, to the the needs of affirmation that we are indeed cherished and viewed as lovable- all are fractals of a whole not able to be found in the human heart alone. This divine spark- this yearning and longing for true love- can only be discovered in the originator of the spark. It is meant to point us back to the Divine- the Creator of the human heart.
The original design of the human heart- was to possess a desire to be with God. The design is not flawed- but we are prone to deviating from it. The perfect love desired can only be found from Love.
"...God is love..." 1 John 4:8 & 16
I am just beginning to get a glimpse of this truth. God is love- the good kind of the love. The unblemished, incorruptible, and selfless kind. The one of which hope and unexpected impossibilities coming true is based off of. It's the inclination that all hearts desire but honestly lack to accomplish on a consistent basis.
" Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance." 1 Corinthians 13:4-13
I'm re-learning love: what it means really and most importantly who it comes from. I want to know more and never stop discovering love. To do that I have to accept this love, this amazing, mind-blowing belief that God created me to love me. The hand that created galaxies- thought there needed to be a me in this world at this time. It's my prayer that as I'm questing to understand and apply God's love- that I will become an instrument to share it. Whether it be in these rambling posts, through the sharing of baked good and hugs, or other devices to create connections with other hearts searching for "true love-" I want to be able to show them mine. I'm praying to be given eyes to see myself as God does, to acquire the ability to love myself that way and others despite the wrong turns, the mistakes, and heart breaks I've experienced. My love story isn't over- in fact it is one that I know ends happily ever after with my True Love.
Love works magic. It is the final purpose of the world story, the Amen of the universe
Novalis
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