Swimming Lessons

I have been called out of the shallows
Beckoned into the Deep
But I hesitate
Not out of fear of drowning but of not knowing how to swim

Oh goodness...it's been a while. Recently my abandoned blog has been brought to my attention. I know every housewife, parent, married/single person has a blog out there today. I don't deem my words more enlightening or awe inspiring than any other. But that doesn't mean that some random person ma not find something worth gleaning from. I am beginning to learn a few things about myself. I am horribly introvert, but artistically thoughtful. Thus my need to find a way to express myself and my struggles to do so. The pen (or this case keyboard) is a wonderful tool to use to counter balance this. I also have things to share. I've lived a little, I've learned some stuff. Someone someday may find a little worth out of my ramblings. So I intend to share. Whether the world is interested or not is to be seen.

 I have hidden out in the shallow end of the pool too long. In my spiritual life that is. The Lord has been beckoning my to go deeper in my relationship. I gulp. You mean head towards the deep end? Sounds a little risky and I am a safety first, wall hugger at heart. The Lord also knows this. I know I make him chuckle and shake his head at me and my short sightedness. He won't force me. He won't nag me. He won't condemn me if I stay in the kiddy side of the pool of life. He will love me still. But He will offer me encouragement. He will show me what it can be like on the deep end, what I could be missing. He will wait for me. He will never stop calling me out to more risk, yes, but greater, rewarding relationship.

Thus my poem. That little five lines at the top. I am afraid of failure and disappointing others. Some of it is a little trauma induced, some a little self inflicted. But I know where I can be healed and made whole. The getting there is what I am trying to figure out. But not on my own! Oh no! I am terrible at directions (just ask anyone who been on the receiving end of my landmark no street name ways of driving!) But I know where to look and Who to guide me. I know I am in no way ready for the Olympic size pool of spirituality. But I think I have pushed off the shallow end side wall and started a decent doggy-paddle.

"Lord let me continue on this journey of discovering You more- Amen."