the return to writing

I promised myself I get back to writing more…not exactly a new years resolution, but the precept got me to thinking. I am only 25 and yet…I feel as though the world has passed me by. I’m old of shape, unmotivated and suffer from boredom too often for someone my age. I feel stagnant and I know the only one to blame is myself. So I promised to return to things that brought me joy before that have been sorrowfully neglected. Writing is one of them that I can embrace more easily since I am not limited by location or utensil to propagate my thoughts. Thus I sit on my lunch break at work typing away on my computer.

Writing has brought me such joy. I use to thrive on the creative writing classes and essays assigned in school. Perhaps the consistent structure atmosphere is what help motivate and challenge me- and now on my own…I’ve discovered my lack of discipline and over all fondness of laziness. I used to be inspired by such simple things and my pen would spout out the most insightful and intellectual words. Poems, essays, journaling and even personal posts were so pleasurable to write. Now- I am having trouble conveying my thoughts on paper. Perhaps it’s the lack of flocculating hormones and emotions of youth that causes the struggle. Perhaps it’s the lack of passion and focus I once had for it.

So I am trying to rekindle this passion for writing as a start to many other promises and goals I’ve made to myself. The root of it must be passion. So many people I know have such a heart for something that surpasses a mere hobby or quandary. They literally have a passion for it. They live it, breathe it, and exude it. I think that is amazing. And I envy them. So writing is a stepping stone for me. First footfall to the chase of passion, I’m hoping to unlock the enthusiasm and contemplation I seemed to have let stray. So hopefully this is the first of more to come. It’s already feels good to feel my fingertips brush over keys and see the words from my mind leave their footprints on the page. This is just my warm up to the race, the chase to recapture my passion.